A Theory

So I've had a theory for a little while that i'd like to share otherwise it'll drive me crazy.

Two years ago a lecturer at my Uni was discussing with me complex numbers. Complex numbers for those of you who don't know are a set of numbers beyond that of the normal number line or the real number set. Complex numbers allow you to take a number, square it and get a negative number as a result. Or vice versa, take the square root of a negative number. Now this number set allows you to take the number line and rotate it in a 2D plane. These numbers were originally considered so beyond comprehension that they were called imaginary.

Well his idea was that perhaps there was another number set which would allow you to rotate the number line not just into 2 dimensions but into 3 dimensions. This is an interesting concept & as much as i now firmly believe in this extra number set (what these numbers are i don't know possibly division by 0? It has to be something we think is impossible in mathematics today.)

Last year, i started thinking that a lot of things in the Universe come in three. There are the 3 spatial dimensions, there is body, mind and soul, the son, the father and the holy spirit etc.

Now there are physicists in the world today trying to unite the 4 forces in the world - gravity, electromagnetic, strong and weak nuclear forces. Scientists have managed to link 3 of these forces but gravity is not wanting to play ball.

I believe there is a lot more to gravity than being a force. We perceive it as a force but i think there is a lot more to it. I believe gravity belongs with time and space and not the forces. If you think of a 3D graph, time, space and gravity take up the x, y, z axis on one and on another the strong nuclear, weak nuclear and electromagnetic forces take up the x, y,z.

With our graph of time, space and gravity well it got me into thinking which is probably a bad thing but it got me thinking that since space is 3 dimensional perhaps time and gravity also have three dimensions and that's possibly why scientists think they've worked out the universe has x more dimensions.

I also want to add that Plato (i think) thought that there was the material world, the physical world and then the world of ideas. I don't think he was entirely wrong. There is the "real" world which we know and can sense around us, the "imaginary" world which i believe is the world of our mind and the "?" world which is possibly the world of the soul/spirit.

Now i could be completely wrong about all of this but for some reason i think its too beautiful an idea not to be right. I could be wrong or misunderstood some things entirely which is very very possible. i'm going to try harder now to try and research this.

Big Brother State!

Have you ever felt like you're being watched? That you are following a script that you've not been allowed to read.

I have.

I feel compelled to resist. To act outside the parameters of the box I'm stuck in. 

Even now, though I'm writing this now and have no idea where I am going, I feel its already been written, that I'm not actually thinking what I'm writing but merely copying what is already written.

Being watched is a very common idea in our society and the likelihood is that you are. There will be some footage somewhere of you going about your daily business, maybe doing something that you are not supposed to. 

While this is wrong on a number of different levels, my feeling of being watched goes much deeper than that and even with no camera'a around me in my room, I feel I am being observed. 

Most people would probably call it God that is watching but I feel really uneasy about it, something more like the Matrix in the respect that a computer programme represents my feelings and frustrations of being watched and controlled. 

I feel compelled to resist because i don't want my ambitions to be limited, my freedom squashed (for some reason, that doesn't feel like the word i should put). 

I don't want to be the person that gets up, goes to work, eats and sleeps. I don't want to be the person who sits at home and twiddles their thumbs.

I want something more. Something freer.

Red Nose Day - Good or Bad?

Another note from me today. I was just watching a documentary about Red Nose Day, comic relief. This made me want to right this blog.

Is Comic Relief really a good thing? I know it does amazing work both in the Uk and Africa in changing peoples lives for the better. Thats the point i'm trying to make though, it changes individuals lives but possibly not the world, it is possibly detrimental to the world. We are saving people without the consequences of those actions other than the short term.

We are striving for an ideal world in which justice and poverty no longer exist, in essence we are striving for a perfect world, which will never work. 

I'm sure every species in the land wished it wouldn't get eaten or killed by other species, every species looks out for its own. I'm pretty sure every species on the planet would like us all to live in a peaceful world where we didn't fight or kill each other and we all saved each other but that's not how the world works. 

I know the people in Africa really struggle to get through a day but they need to feel that to know happiness just like in the developed world we have to feel pain, fear and horror just as much as those in the developing countries and probably to the exact same extent to feel the happiness. 

Everyone keeps complaining about the HIV/Aids problem but we wouldn't have a problem if we let them die. I know people will think i have a cold heart when they read that but its true and it may help with the overpopulation of the planet. 

I know nobody likes to think about death and its instinct to survive but its something that has to happen. If everyone lived forever then we'd be in a much bigger crisis than we are now. There wouldn't be enough money, food to go around, all the natural resources would be used up already. We'd be facing certain death anyway. 

If we keep saving people, the planet will most probably die because it just won't be able to handle us or more likely it will kill us all. 

The question is, is a million lives worth all of ours? 

Eating Disorders

Long time no speak but i've not had anything worth mentioning.

I was playing Basketball last night and somehow the topic of eating came up and i mentioned my troubles with food which are few.

First, when i was very young I would overeat, overeat so much that i'd puke up after the meal. I didn't hide it, everyone in my family new i ate so much that I vomited.  I actually remember my mother telling me to go to the sink to be sick after a bowl of tomato soup.

I grew out of overeating, well not overeating but overeating that much. I eventually replaced it with an addiction to milk or rather an intolerance to the evil milk. I would drink like 2-4 pints a day. 

I would drink so much that I'd get headaches, my vision would blur and then once more it'd be too the toilet while i was sick. For many years i didn't know why i was sick but then realised it was the evil milk but when i didn't know then i'd get sent home from school when essentially all i had done was detox myself from the milk.

Now i have an eating disorder in that i eat all the bad stuff when i know my body doesn't need it or want it.

Are eating disorders really that bad? I have had my problems with food and still have but are they honestly really that bad. I know things like anorexia and bulimia are bad but they are done for the wrong reasons and its more a case of their own personal issues with themselves. I think its bad that they have to hide it but i think there are a lot of people out there with eating disorders or disorders in the past but it hasn't adversely affected them, it is only when it goes to the absolute extremes that it is a problem.

Education!

Now there were two things i wanted to discuss or rather rant about. That has been reduced to one. It is the education system.

First though, i have been watching the Australian Open, tennis for those of you who don't know. There have been some fantastic matches. I'm looking forward to the Andrew Murray match tomorrow morning.

Also, i have had a change of location, i'm now currently in my home town of Ayr on the west coast of Scotland. It is also the Burns weekend. Burns or Robert Burns was from a little village called Alloway, just outside Ayr. Robert Burns was the national poet of Scotland and every year at new year we sing one of his most famous songs, "Auld Lang Syne". Well, it's the Bard's 250th birthday on Sunday.

On to today's topic of discussion.

The only time that I really struggle is when I have an idea that takes hold of me and possesses my mind. The idea and the thoughts that it inspires is the only things that i can think about. The only thing wrong with this is the feeling that it is wrong to think about it because when you have an idea, there are always the mundane things like school and Uni projects that need to be done or perhaps your older and it has now progressed into work.

You can't develop the idea that is eating you from the inside out because you have like 1001 and things to do, that are now no longer of any interest. if you've never felt like this, i feel sorry for you.

Now, you're wondering how all this relates to the education system, but i feel school should allow you to develop in any ideas you have further. You needn't worry about failing or grades or paying the bills. It is a great way to learn as well because you have to be able to communicate your ideas across successfully and lets face it as a little kid the amount of time you dream of traveling across the stars or flying or traveling so fast no one can see you etc. will lead many kids into the marvelous area of science and the possibilities it holds.

I have many ideas early in my school career and i told them to an adult and they treated me like an idiot rather than discussing it and delving into the subject with me so i can learn not only how to make the idea a reality but the subject which could have spawned more ideas which would have made me learn more. 

For a long time, i felt that I was an idiot and that none of my ideas were ever good even though some of them were.

I think Britain needs a more positive outlook and a more let's try it and that needs to be instilled in school because lessons learned at an early age can last a lifetime. 

Dreams and Nature's Revenge

Now most of this post is inspired by www.lyved.com but i have been feeling some of the things for a long time but haven't quite formulated a definite opinion on it, which is probably for the better.

The first half will be somewhat of a continuation from yesterday's blog. The second half is no doubt controversial and many people in the world would not like what i say in this half but i feel it is necessary.

Dreams

Now like many of you, I have dreams. Fantastic dreams that are a mixture of both the possible and the impossible. My dreams are:

• To run/own my own business
• To be able to fly
• To see the world
• To see the Universe and walk amongst the stars
• To travel through time
• To push the boundaries of science and knowledge further
• To learn as much as is humanly possible or more i really don't mind
• To get married and have kids
• To write something for tv, film or a novel
• To be successful

As you can see a number of different dreams quite a few of them seem virtually impossible by the limits of science at the present time.

Most people at this time of year are setting resolutions for the next year to either improve themselves or to make their dreams a reality. Now most of the above mentioned dreams are too many for one year and too many to have a go all at once but to start a few would be a good goal for the year.

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Now the second half is a lot less happy. There are millions of people who will hate me for saying what I am about to write. As much as I hate what I am about to write as well, I believe that it needs to be said and needs to be discussed sooner rather than later. Later may be too late.

Nature's Revenge

We all know unless we've being living in a cave that the planet is warming up. This warming is resulting in more hurricanes across the south east coast of America and other parts of the world, severe flooding and tsunamis. 

Why is nature doing this, why is the planet doing this, you may ask. With good reason as well. You may think you live well, your not harming the environment, your green, you treat other humans well. Wrong. 

By simply being alive we are harming the planet, not just through how much carbon dioxide your lifestyle pumps into the atmosphere. You harm it by wasting its resources. The desk you are sitting at with your computer and printer was once a nice happy tree living in a forest somewhere with all its tree mates. The paper you use was also once a happy tree, possibly part of the same tree that gave you, your desk. The desk I'm typing at right now was once a tree.

A quote from Agent Smith in the Matrix, i think describes us possibly the best:

"I'd like to share a revelation that I've had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species and I realised that you're not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment but you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same patter. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You're a plague and we are the cure."

We aren't quite a virus. We do walk around this planet as if we are God. There is a widlife reserve in Scotland, i believe who re-introduced deer to the surrounding without re-introducing any predators so the deer grew and grew in numbers and in an effort to make sure that the deer didn't get too many in number for the environment, we killed them.

Now humans don't have any predators but who is regulating our numbers? Nobody. Which is why nature sets about trying to but is so far unsuccessful because our medicine is too good. Trillions of people should die each year but get saved due to modern medicine. A lot of people have viruses that are killing them but we save them and the virus keeps on infecting people and people carry on living. 

There is one solution to eradicating the virus - let the people die. If we let all the people with HIV and Aids die there is no more HIV, we trim the population down by a few million and the government saves money because the NHS doesn't have to pay for the pills to save them. 

There is the whole thing of human rights to get around with and the whole fact they deserve to live but so does every animal on this planet - yet we'll happy put them down if they are too ill and will cost the government millions of pounds to keep them alive. We happily kill animals every year but one human life, no thats a no no. 

Every human, animal and plant life on this Earth and in this Universe is worth the same. A dog's life is worth the same as a human life.

Why do we humans believe that we are better than the animals on this planet? If anything we are not. People may think we are more intelligent but are we really? A dog can understand other dogs and humans and for that matter can probably understand cats as well. Who can we understand, us! Does that sound like we are the more intelligent being? 

You may say we are more intelligent because we trash nature's landscape with horrible highrises and roads, we have computers, we can go into space. Well think of it this way a dog probably doesn't care. Ask them about space they'll give you a Catherine Tate answer, "Space, bovvered? I ain't bovvered about no space!" that's if you can understand a dog's bark.

Nature is striking back and it doesn't care who it kills. Rich, poor, black, white, clever, dumb, human, dog, fish, plants. All i know is that you'll have to be good at adapting when the time comes. It may help if your clever because then you can get away from Earth. It may help if you are physically fit, may not, may help if your fat, may not. I can't tell you the best way to survive nature's revenge, all i know is that its coming and only the best will survive. We are about to see Evolution in progress, if you can survive, that is.

About Me!

For my first blog, i think it would be suitable to tell you a little about myself. 

I am a 20-year-old student hailing from Ayr in Scotland, the birthplace of Robert Burns. I am studying Acoustics at the University of Salford. 

I love my sports, particularly sports that seem to be aimed towards boys even though I am not. That has always perplexed me. A girl who prefers boyish sports and boyish subjects, that is not that i am perplexed about me being a girl now that would be strange. I'm not girlish really in any way, i don't like shopping - its a necessity not a hobby, i'm not into clothes, make-up or any of that girly nonsense.

I digress, my favourite sports are tennis, basketball, ice hockey, roller (inline) hockey. 

I have a fairly scientific mind in that i wonder about the Universe, life and generally everything in it as well including why the government is useless. I will no doubt tell you about my little theories on the world and the universe but that is for another time.

I enjoy writing and programming and i find they give off the same frustrations and the same sense of achievement at the end. 

I have said that i enjoy science and the wonder of it all but i am also fascinated by language. Language has always puzzled me. I don't believe language is as easy as science, with science you are either right or wrong but with language there is no right or wrong. That fascinates me. Change one word in any sentence or add/take away a comma or a full stop somewhere and it changes the meaning. Fascinating!